It looks like I learned to appreciate the gift of serving in the temple is just that. A gift, to myself! Last month I felt I needed to take a short leave of absence, so I did. Then, I went today for the first time to the same time and shift where I have been for the last two years. The sisters there had become a part of my life each week. I would see them come and go, and have conversation with them and see their busy-ness as well in their lives. I miss that even so.
Living is not standing still either. Life continues and goes on. It depends on how we choose to do the things we do that shape our overall being on a day to day foundation.
I ask myself,"Am I really going in the direction I want to and need to go?" "Do I enjoy the things I do?" What am I doing to change the results?"
It's all up to me. The individual. The time we all have with one another is precious. The older I get, the more I am aware of that. So, why not make the best of it? Carry on and do what is right and let the consequences follow.
Yesterday, I finished up some unfinished business. Just that one task was put off long enough. Last month I finally went to register my car to get the current tags for the year. Unaware, I did not notice I needed to get an emissions test for the car prior to registering it. Last time two years ago, I did not need to do either a safety inspection or emissions. So I just thought that was again the case this year. Not so.
Anyway, I paid the fees plus the temporary extension fee until the emissions is complete. One thing and then another got in my way, and I had been driving about a month over the temporary expiration. Granted, I had paid the fees and was up to date on that, but not on getting the actual new "11 tags. For a while I prayed to be invisible to any law enforcement officers to avoid any impounding for driving on an expired temporary registration on my car window.
I breathed a sigh of relief once I got the test done, and went back to the state registration office in Provo to get my new '11 tag for the license plate.
It was a great burden lifted in doing the right thing and feel totally right with the world. It is how we live and make those choices. I drove for a month, with unnecessary guilt for not taking the time to just take care of the details.
I know it was the Holy Ghost prompting me, to do the right thing and lift that burden and abide by the laws of the state. I covenant each week when I take the sacrament to keep the commandments, which includes to honor and obey the laws too of the land. (Articles of Faith,) It may have been a minor infraction, nevertheless I still felt the need to do it, and make it right.
Silly as it may seem, I did have a conscience to tell me to get it done.
I also felt that going back to work in the temple meant for me to consider going to a different time, and work a day shift. It is not easy to get myself settled down early enough to get the sleep I need to be on task at 4:30 am and make it through the day with little sleep. Seeing the sisters again from my shift gave me pause to think again, if that is what I need to do. It is my choice. I will be a better person whichever time I decide to work at the temple again. The answer will come as I ponder, decide and make that change over the next few weeks a matter of prayer.
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